Yeah, hmm...

Hmm...

so in the absence of everything tell me what's left? what do you use to punctuate our lives... not every soul is deserving of a legacy? i kind of hate my life in its current state... it's stagnant and it lacks any true form. i am pregnant with ideas that get aborted before they gain any traction for birth. but it is what i make it right? who else can decide but me? and if i don't want to make those decisions? hmm... there it goes again more thoughts, becoming more random and caustic... i'm an idea merchant working the lobby of a flea market... a blowing seed...

All about caring. Or not.

Who really cares? 


no one is really giving a shit now any way. to many self serving ass holes in the world... so who really cares? i think some people might care too much about insignificant things that do not matter. people rage about out rage and not about things that matter. that's enough, i've had my therapy for today so...

What's that now???

Her...

so i am newly divorced... i know i said that before and it's no longer "newly" but i have been dating... and i have been very upfront about my intentions but i feel like i am being strong armed into a relationship... i don't really care about anyone right not (no emotional baggage)... women (the ones that i now) insist on telling me that "you're afraid to get close cause you might get hurt..." that is tired and so untrue... i don't want to be monogamous... now ladies if a man told you that, i mean up front gave you the truth would you believe him? if he said "i want to sleep with other women, this has nothing to do with you and everything to do with my appetites" what would you say? remember you have a choice to say "i don't want to deal with you than" and simply walk away... or enjoy the time... 

now i am just slick enough to "date" more than one woman at a time, telling lies locking my phone and computer you know the shit most married men do... but life is short and i would rather not play those type of games... so i say up front, a relationship is not what im looking for, i am not looking for marriage, i am looking for a friendship and comedy and joy and all the things that dont come with commitment. just my thoughts...